I am not happy. I do not like who I have become. I do not know how to do anything about it. I feel like crap about myself...gaining weight and not caring about my appearance. Being an awful wife. Neglecting my home. Not really doing anything as a family. Losing contact with my friends. Being lazy in general.
My 10th anniversary is in just over a week and I've thought little about it and done nothing.
I'm angry and sad that Sophie won't have a Birthday party because there's no one to have a party with.
I can't stop shopping because it's the only thing that makes me feel the least bit good.
Sophie's smiles and snuggles are the only thing getting me through right now :(
